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Peter Webster
14 August 2009 @ 08:55 am
Peter Webster
12 May 2009 @ 09:19 pm
The twelfth of May. Peter hated it. Dreaded it. Feared it. Did his damnedest to ignore it.

Was haunted by it.

Three years. Three years that he'd woken up to this day alone, without him. Four years since he'd considered celebrating. Their 21st birthday was also the day Jimmy died. There was nothing and no one that could make that fact palatable, no way to find it tolerable. It hurt, it beyond hurt. It went so far past hurt and into numbed agony that it came back out the other side again. He was hollow. That other half, sometimes he thought the better half, was gone and there was no getting it back. Any other day of the year, Peter tried to pretend it was okay and that he could be strong, move on, cope.

Not today.

Today he turned off his phone, shut off his pager and decided he wasn't even getting out of bed. Today he was going to mourn and grieve and wallow and cry.

His parents wanted him to come home, make the drive back to Newbury and spend the day with them. He just couldn't. They'd all stare at him and not say what they were thinking. His mother would drink and Dad would insist on talking about Jimmy. And someone would suggest they all go to the cemetery. Or worse, to church. Today was the one day Peter refused to speak to God. There was nothing to say, he'd asked the only question he had wanted an answer to--why? There was never a good enough answer. There wasn't anything else to say on the matter.

Jimmy was dead. Peter was alone. Nothing else mattered.
Current Location: bed
Current Mood: indescribableindescribable
Peter Webster
24 February 2009 @ 01:31 am
The rules are: Comment to this post and I will give you 5 subjects/things I associate you with. Then post this in your LJ and elaborate on the subjects given.

From Rory:

friendship - I seem to have a lot of friends, I'm good at friends. Friends I can handle. It's everything else I seem to make a mess of.

sister - Grace. Love her, love to strangle her some days. When it comes down to it though, she's pretty much my go to girl when I really need to vent or whatever.

choir - Where Grace and I are every Wednesday and Sunday. I enjoy singing, I don't think I'm half bad at it and hey, makes Dad happy that I'm more than a lump on a pew come Sundays.

dancing - And, I like doing this and I don't think I'm bad at it. Fast or slow, complicated steps or just cutting loose.

cookies - Yummy.
Peter Webster
19 February 2009 @ 02:46 am
Peter Webster
16 February 2009 @ 01:14 pm
Peter Webster
08 February 2009 @ 03:46 pm
Muffin Girl is awesome.

She sent me cookies. Heart-shaped cookies. For me.

I'm not sharing.
Peter Webster
04 February 2009 @ 03:33 pm
1. Shuffle your iPod/ MP3 player/ iTunes/ Whatever else you have.
2. Answer the questions by the song title that comes up.
3. Don't cheat, it makes every thing more fun!

Music meme, of course it came from Jean-PaulCollapse )
Peter Webster
01 February 2009 @ 07:28 pm
Say Anything--It's A Metaphor, Fool

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That's cheerful, isn't it?

And from Terry:

1 question...
1 chance...
1 honest answer...

That's all you get. Ask me one question. Any one question, anything, no matter how crazy it is. An honest answer. No catch.

Feel free to lock it to me if you don't want other people to see it. I also have license to lock it if I don't want to share it with everyone.
Current Mood: confusedconfused
Peter Webster
30 January 2009 @ 04:23 am
1. If your lover betrayed you, what will your reaction be?

Are we talking about sleeping around outside of a committed relationship or some other sort of betrayal? Hurt, angry, confused...I think those are all valid reactions. I'd probably need to know why they did what they did and if it was a reflection of not being happy with me as a partner before I could think about the next step. I know a lot of people say "throw in the towel" or "kill them" or "leave" but I don't think I could just up and walk away from someone I cared about. Read moreCollapse )